Weekend of nothing... Results are in

Ok, I didn't plan this weekend to be this way, but I had the laziest, least productive and what I thought would be the best weekend to relax in a while (possibly ever.) I don't really know how it happened, I think it had to do with the fact that this week was one of the more stressful, and least productive weeks I have ever had at work. I spent all week basically working on a single bug, and still never solved it. All I did was find a good way around it. There is no satisfaction in that.

Saturday I got up around 9:30 because I heard my roommate running around and I wanted to chat with her. She is never home at all, I see her for 10 min here, 10 min there. It sucks, when I first met her all I wanted was her to be my girlfriend, I tried everything I had to make that work. All she wanted was a friend. OK, I get that I'm over it now. After a falling-out because I was pissed at the way I was getting treated (misunderstandings on both sides) I just want to be a friend now, but it seems I must have screwed that up too, because I have to schedule an appointment to ever see her for more that 5 min. It almost feels like she is avoiding me. She and I never get to do anything together, she always has something else to do. Two times since she moved in have we actually talked or done something together. If I invite her to dinner or a hike or something there is always someone else she can invite along, but if she is going to dinner or a hike with someone else do I ever get invited? No.. (OK that was some grumpy speculation but that's how I feel.) I'm sure I am just making it worse now too, because the only time I get to see here I make fun of the fact that I don't get to see her, because I'm a sarcastic asshole, and my only way of coping with the jealousy and sadness is to be sarcastic. Ok, I'm off on another rant right now, this could go on for awhile.. Ill get back to the subject.

30 seconds after I walked out of my room to talk she was gone, and all day like she always is, so I did nothing but download and watch TV shows.

Joey, My Name is Earl, Mythbusters, South Park, Simpsons, Family Guy, Fifth Gear.

I didn't even get out of my pajamas until 3:30, and only then because I was helping my friend JD move.

I was in bed by 9:30 watching more TV shows. Sunday was the same, I woke up around 8:45 (way early for me, but again attempting to get some time to hang out with Kristen, but she promptly left as soon as I walked out of my room again, so I went back to bed.) The computer was right there by my so I watched more TV. 11:00 I rolled out of bed, moved to the living room and played some more on the computer (downloaded more episodes.)

5:00 PM I went to Mark And Sarahs' house for a great dinner, by far was the highlight of the weekend. The only issue (and it isn't that much of an issue) I had was that I was the only single person there.. Mark and Sarah (married), Mike and Sadie, (married) Jarrod and Jess, and me.. yay..

Anyway I thought this was just going to be an awesome re-charge for the weeks ahead, wake up on Monday morning refreshed and ready to work. That's what I thought.. This morning I slept through my alarm. Bought the wrong soda at the gas station (sugar free tastes like ass) and in general I'm in one of the more grumpy moods I've been in for awhile. I am actually fairly certain it is all my guilt from wasting the weekend crashing down on me as soon as responsibility kicked in again..

I need a run...